rantings of redeyes III

You know you are fooling everyone but yourself if you're happy in front of everyone except her. Sometimes you cannot help but feel angry, because you know you shouldn't have fallen for her. But since you have, you will try your very best to fake happiness when you are with her, and sooner or later you notice it's not just this relationship that is in jeopardy, but also the relationship between you and your friends.

You know that sometimes you just cannot lie to your heart, because it does not. And since it doesn't, the best part is that it forces you to fall in love with someone you shouldn't have fallen for, and that makes you think of all sorts of nonsensical things and do all kind of stupid stuffs for her. Maybe time will tell you that it is not going to work, but it just seems, more often than not, that you will not listen.

You know too sometimes you manage to get the answer that you are looking for but not the answer that you want. You will just force yourself to accept the answer as just some rubbish that will prove no more than obstruct your way to her for a moment before you gain what you wish for. You will also see the answer as something that motivates you to do better so as to keep up with the expectations and ultimately, with her.

You know perfectly well that those times are just times when you think too much. But then again, you cannot lie to your heart, because it does not.

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