Life's Little Lamentation

Angel of Mercy, Guide me, that I shall not wander, and be lost Lead me, that I find my way Angel of Mercy, Sing, lest I forget thy voice Speak, that I will listen Angel of Mercy, Shout, as to wake me up Touch, that I feel Angel of Mercy, Let me do my best Leave me, that I know who I am Angel of Mercy, Burn me, that I feel your wrath and repent Believe me, that I will believe myself Angel of Mercy, Show me, the right way Purify me, to make a new me Angel of Mercy, Guide me, lest I be lost Lead, that I may find my way -written on 9th Oct 2003-

She came, a lonely figure a panther in the night a fire that burned bright so hot. She came, and I looked a woman of truth but she lied or so I thought. She came, given a time a simple meaning of care blossoming meadows, my soul harmlessly rendered. She came, and it was clear like an untouched spring of life and death but I, was confused. She came, the truth it was a danger lurked behind that forlorn figure, I cried. She came, as fast as light that she passed my hope onboard, dreams too as she took flight. -written on 9th Oct 2003-

Everytime I look up high Above the stars, far beyond the skies Roses I see, in between trees of life It is a marvellous sight oh...heaven's eye I grow fond of them, for there is much And all but none too strong Great is that, uncontrolled, unmatched That such is heaven that fondness grew The stars applaud, with fine grandeur For what I see is beyond thoughts That thoughts are what but Thou possesses To love is what but Thou maketh The sky, the love and the trees of life I hope to live to see them bloom Reveal the mind that thoughts are thoughts There it is oh...heaven's eye Indeed the blue of sky I feel of pale That such a sight I've come to love It bonds my heart, my soul entwines To see the stars, the skies and oh...heaven's eye -written on 16th Sept 2003-

-The day at the Charis Old Folks' Home- a blessed day indeed, wonderfully bestowed by God; love the sight of them all. enclosed photo - passeth the gentleman is a flag; the Jalur Gemilang. -Malaysia Boleh- proud to be a christian in my country. Hallelujah, praise God for freedom of religion and the unending care for old folks. Standing thee; full of pride indeed Such may come whilst in need The Father, Son and Holy Spirit Come, come please

Dear Lord, I pray for a special day, A day that is lasting and fruitful A day of calmness and peaceful serene weather For Her I pray for a special moment, The moment where all else as candles fade The moment when You shine as many other times For Her I pray for a special time, Of awakening and of joyful bliss Of revival and of restoration For Her I pray for a special situation, That to purify her vile heart if should That to snap her out of dreams if should That to make her whole again I pray for a special day, A day where angels surround in wondrous wings of praise A day where your victorious trumpets resound tremendously A day where closest friends cheer Dear Lord, I pray for that Special Day, For that Special Someone, For Her Birthday -to a friend on her 21st birthday-

My heart, It is painful. My soul, It is restless. Wanting to see you, already do. wanting to greet you, instead of being a fool. It is true, that I love you. But I know you, I really do. Love I know, is persevering and true is caring and pure is everything but you. -written on 11th Sept 2003-

Memories hath no boundaries, but for itself. It yearns to be cherished, treasured, guarded and so It seemed. Sadly my heart it will break Leaving behind nothing but the truth About You and I Leave it as it was, or gone. It had a scent of mighty perfume intoxicating yet attracting It lied to me about You, but fairer still it seemed, your memoir. bring it may, as it was, indeed contracting and ironic Wishes made are stored and spread Memories touched my soul, melted heart. As it was and shalt be, forgotten as much as yesterday, So much as the wind, fleeting yet ever-present It will ne'er be forgotten e'en till eternity. -written on 22nd July 2003-

I saw, I gazed into the emptiness of your heart I am tired, desperately so I knew you're brought to my side But I wondered, pondered and couldnt find an answer. The love of ours I hold no memories, I saw darkness clouding the scenery Coldness crept into my single heart Wounded mind and tormented soul And then I saw you, you as One Mesmerizing eyes, silky face and the heart I won I yearned that life's life that my dream I dreamed is all but true. But life as it is, it was, as it will be uncaring, harsh, taunting and sadly true six years, stood here still. -six years for the first love in my former alma mater-

If there is one day I shall wish to miss, it is the day that happened to be the least of importance, of zeal, of urgency. If there is one person I shall wish to forget, she is one of those kind I thought to be true and sincere but is not. If there is one moment I shall wish to cherish, be it with you or someone else That is not important because I know I am with you. If there is one word I shall wish to remember, It is You, and that is important. If there is one place I shall wish to go, be it the earth's core or the heaven's eye it doesn't matter for you are with me. If only if were true, my heart's so then I know the one for me truly You.

Tomorrow be it bleak, in my own hands dirtied, marred Hoping that, facing tomorrow wouldn’t be, as hard as, feelings of yesterday Spurring I for once, my heart It beats too slowly pulsating, a halt. Income Depleting Unit, born to give hope the other way round I fear, that I was meant to be undeniably a loser Will to procrastinate hope to remain Thou art me. -written and dedicated to my parents right before SPM-