First Love?

I saw, I gazed into the emptiness of your heart
I am tired, desperately so
I knew you're brought to my side
But I wondered, pondered and couldnt find an answer.

The love of ours I hold no memories,
I saw darkness clouding the scenery
Coldness crept into my single heart
Wounded mind and tormented soul

And then I saw you, you as One
Mesmerizing eyes, silky face and the heart I won
I yearned that life's life
that my dream I dreamed is all but true.

But life as it is, it was, as it will be
uncaring, harsh, taunting and sadly true
six years,
stood here still.

-six years for the first love in my former alma mater-

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